Saturday, November 29, 2008


If you have been anxious because everything seems out of whack recently, a shift toward stability is in the works. But it's not without its own intensity, so don't expect too much too fast. What's most important is that you should be able to enjoy yourself more now, no matter what stresses you face. Finding that peaceful place within can change your attitude for the better.

Thursday, November 27, 2008


I thank thanksgiving because on thanksgiving day I can do nothing and not feeling guilty.
the city is slow, sleepy and lazy.
exactly like me.
One day out of 365 LA is similar to me and that day has come, it's today, the thanksgiving day!!!! Yeahhhhhhhh
thank god nobody will push me today.

Vote Yes on Prop. 1
thanksgiving once a month.
(for a more enjoyable life)

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Lazy Saturday

I started the day with a spinning lesson at 8.30, after one week of complete inactivity. When I returned home, I found crepes with chocolate, crepes with jam and cappuccino with a soft, delicious foam. He made both of them. Such a lovely husband, isn't he?

(..............OK, now, you can tell me what you want from me)

Mean crazytimes.

after washing the dishes from our abundant breakfast, I sat on the couch and never moved from there.

Lazy crazytimes.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Dinner Out: a Big Event

Thanks to an inhuman effort, I was able to kick me out of my house and have dinner in a restaurant last night. The truth is that I could not refuse going, I had to join my husband and three more people whose average age was 55.

Two of them were a professor at university and his wife, they live in LA, he is Italian, she is, who knows, Canadian with Japanese origins. She speaks a great Italian and he has a huge culture that made me aware of what I am, ignorant! I already knew it, but it is always hard when you can add one more evidence to your ignorance, I guess.

The third was a friend of them who is doing a trip around the world.
After the US he will go to Columbia, he will return to Italy in April, at the end of winter. He supports Berlusconi, never paid taxes, this is what he said, and was very critical to teachers. For some unknown reasons he liked me, and talked to me a lot, actually he never stopped telling stories and it must be then when my headache started, and now the headache is still going on.

With my great surprise I found myself not replying to his opinions, not arguing, not even softly(?), I was just nodding. I was not mean to him except when a "che ce frega dello Stato" came out of my mouth unexpectedly. Either I am getting old or I am victim of my own hormones and their still ongoing ups and downs. Despite all his scary ideas, I felt some kind of pain for him. This trip around the world, that he is doing with no friends, only raised in me the thought that he must be lonely!!!. I could almost touch my tenderness for him. Maybe I am the one who feels lonely and I am transferring my loneliness on others.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

From my mom

My mom sent me three bags full of games for kids, books and food.
I just asked for three packages of coffee, she must have thought that was not enough and added just a few more things, something like 8 more kilos. I know this is her way to show me how much she cares. She misses me a lot but she would never say a word to have me back in Italy and I appreciate this, her being always supportive, even when it's hard.

Monday, November 17, 2008


Four years ago my dog died. I was already here.
I didn't see her dying. I hope she did not suffer.
She was my dog for 12 years and I still miss her so much.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


It's so sad when you find out that people do not tell you the truth.
You go out with them, even for months, you reach a good level of intimacy, and one day, all of a sudden, you start putting the various elements together.
Bits of silence and absences that, together, depict the portrait of a fake relationship.
You wonder why it happened, it was you? it was them?
What went wrong?

When you are into a friendship you expect a certain response.
When this response doesn't come once, you don't notice it.
the second time you justify it.
the third time you open up your eyes.
You can only feel the disappointment and take a step back.
You do not want to turn it into a drama.
You think C'est la vie,
yes, c'est la vie.
(Una vie del cazzo, pero').

Saturday, November 8, 2008

you sexy thing

Don't know why this video.

Today he replaced the new lamp with the broken one.
We feel in good company now, there's always someone staring at us, following our movements, if we raise our arms, they will raise theirs too. Not too bad.

Living abroad, so much abroad, brings you back to important things in life.
You learn how your parents and friends' voice can warm your heart,
how precious their love is, how much it means to you.
you realize how much spoiled you used to be, how much you took for granted, what loneliness is, how much it can hurt, how much it makes you stronger, how much you learn how to roll up your sleeves, how much you rely on yourself. It gives you pain and a sense of self-confidence at the same time. It's bad and good.

After more than 5 years what I miss the most is still my family, sometimes it is breathtaking. You think it is unbearable, but it is not. Nothing is unbearable, this is what you learn. Parents' survive their child's death, you'll survive this.
Ok, tonight my mood is not the best but I have a good news.
F. had the surgery, they removed something from his eye (it has a name but I forgot) and already started the therapy. In 40 days he will have surgery to the other eye. He has suffered after the surgery. If he can stand this pain, I can stand living 9 hours back in time. Life is practical. Life is nothing more than being angry and aggressive enough to survive all the time it kicks you.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Yes We Can

It was a creed written into the founding documents that declared the destiny of a nation.
Yes we can.
It was whispered by slaves and abolitionists as they blazed a trail toward freedom.
Yes we can. Yes we can.
It was sung by immigrants as they struck out from distant shores
and pioneers who pushed westward against an unforgiving wilderness.
Yes we can. Yes we can.
It was the call of workers who organized;
women who reached for the ballots;
a President who chose the moon as our new frontier;
and a King who took us to the mountain-top and pointed the way to the Promised Land.
Yes we can to justice and equality.
(yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can…)

Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity.
Yes we can to opportunity and prosperity.
Yes we can heal this nation.
Yes we can repair this world.
Yes we can. Si Se Puede
(yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can…)

We know the battle ahead will be long,
but always remember that no matter what obstacles stand in our way,
nothing can stand in the way of the power of millions of voices calling for change.
We want change!
(We want change! We want change! We want change…)

We have been told we cannot do this by a chorus of cynics who will only grow louder and more dissonant.
We’ve been asked to pause for a reality check.
We’ve been warned against offering the people of this nation false hope.
But in the unlikely story that is America, there has never been anything false about hope. We want change!
(We want change! I want change! We want change! I want change…)

The hopes of the little girl who goes to a crumbling school in Dillon are the same as the dreams of the boy who learns on the streets of LA;
we will remember that there is something happening in America;
that we are not as divided as our politics suggests;
that we are one people;
we are one nation;
and together, we will begin the next great chapter in America’s story with three words that will ring from coast to coast;
from sea to shining sea - Yes. We. Can.
(yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can, yes we can…)

Monday, November 3, 2008

It's (almost) Election Day!

Tomorrow it's going to be the election day, I am at the same time excited and afraid to get disappointed. There are more Americans like McCain than like Obama, but I still hope the black candidate from Hawaii will win.

Almost all the people I know are democratic, but one. He does not really care of the politics itself, he just wants to stop abortion, making it illegal. He is pro-life and the President of a pregnancy center in Downtown. Only this question: do you think that abortion will stop just by making it illegal? can you really believe this?

My neighborhood is full of signs saying Vote NO on Prop. 8, which, if approved, will put gay marriage out of law in California. I hope it won't get approved. I do support all those relationships that promote respect, love, mutual growth. I do not care about people's gender.

Everybody, even if not American, should have the right to vote in the American elections. Since it is able to affect all the world, it would be at least fair to give the world the right to decide for its future.

I'm done, I guess.

Go, Obama Go!